So much for a purge free month

I just purged because I feel way too full and really sick and it barely helped. I know I already digested too much :(

I told my mom (who thinks I stopped purging) and she told me I was disgusting and I "need to find a new activity". What kinda bullshit is that?! I am not doing this for fun! Its not for recreational purposes! My brain and my thoughts are poisoned and they wont stop telling me mentally and physically, GET IT OUT!

I'm so pissed, not really at my self, just to people who cant understand/ handle this aspect of my life.